Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Dear, Sweet Man

My love, my heart has died.

Over the last few days, I could see a decline in Rob. He was in distress a lot. It was difficult to breathe. He was such a trooper - he really didn't let on that he was in pain or having trouble breathing. I could tell because of the way he took his breaths. Quick breaths. Shallow breaths. Using all of his muscles, not just moving his chest up and down.

2:25 this morning, he was able to leave his cancer-ridden body and join our daughter, his twin brother, and his grandparents in heaven. He was surrounded by me, our children, his parents, sister, and my mom. We were all cheering him on letting him know that it was OK to leave us.

He is the most amazing man. Kind, loyal, sensitive, caring, happy, artistic, wonderful, funny, loving. I love him with all my heart. He will be missed incredibly.

Funeral service will be sometime this week. Still working out the logistics - waiting for Arizona, California, Texas, and Florida family members to arrive. I will update as soon as I know.

13 comments:

Cherie said...

Love you all.

Unknown said...

Marcie and I are sorry to hear about his passing but it is very apparent how much you guys loved each other as a family. I am sure he took comfort in that thru it all and now he is free. We wish you the best- Byron

Erin said...

My dear Jessica,
Words cannot describe my feelings for you and your family at this time. Please know that I love you and appreciate everything you have done for me, even during your own trials. I am here if there is anything I can do for you, ever. Your family is in my prayers.
Erin

Shan said...

Oh Jess, Jakes, Gabs, and Noah,
How much our hearts hurt for you at this time. Please know that you are in our prayers.

Robert was a fighter! He fought for his family, his testimony, and his love for you! Believe in that...believe in the Gospel of Jesus Christ. That is the solace and peace that can only come at this time.

Please let me know if we can do anything! I know how to make some mean enchiladas--your recipe, of course!

We love you!!!
Shan & Joe

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Sharon said...

Love you so much.

Justin said...

Jessica,

I am so sorry for your family's loss. Rob was a great friend and colleague. I was extremely fortunate to know and work with Rob for more than 7 years. He was truly a special person. There was nothing that could be said to upset him. He had an outlook on life that was so positive and infectious. He will be truly missed.

Kind Regards,
Justin Smith
Ottobock

Amy said...

Hugs and love to you all. I hope you feel the love and comfort from those who surround you and from those who have passed before.

-Amy Mulcock

Debbie said...

Jessica,
You and your family are in our prayers always!!
So sorry to hear of Rob's passing. I struggle to understand the lords thinking sometimes, but his will be done. I know Rob is in a better place and breathing nicely. He will forever be in our memories, he was such an amazing man!!
All our love,
The Blatt's

Nancy Hill said...

My dear Jessica,
I am sincerely grateful for the day you introduced yourself and shared our common bond. I know how bittersweet this day has been for you. Sorrow - for the emptiness. Joy - for the freedom from pain that your sweetheart is no longer enduring. Eternal gratitude - knowing that families will be together forever.

You are, and have been, in my prayers - for strength and comforting peace.

Nancy Hill

Ashley Richards said...

Jess,

I love the opening line of this post. It brought me to tears instantly. He is your love and he is your heart. Likewise, you are his love and you are his heart. That will never change.

I also loved how you said in the obituary to breath deep. What an awful feeling it must have been to not be able to breath. I cannot even imagine - I definitely take that for granted.

Thanks for being you, and thanks for sharing this most personal journey with all of us. My only regret - I wish I would have known Robert better.

I love you Jess! Please hug your kids for me and let them know their father is near and will be forever.

Ash

Matthew said...

We send all our love and pledge our support in the coming weeks and months as you will miss Rob terribly. You are a wonderful family and we are lucky to be your neighbors.

Lindz said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You have an amazing strength, and an amazing family.